The daffodils brighten up my spirits, but I’m really POOOOOPED. I have no energy tonight. My skin is starting to itch. It’s very bizarre because I can feel the itch, but I cannot feel relief if I rub the area. The chinese salve helps a bit, a cool compress does as well. If the skin breaks down we know radiation is doing what it’s meant to do. It’s tolerable, but distracting right now.
I have to cut back on my ambitions, and I struggle just to let things slide. Maybe I feel like if the outside looks somewhat orderly, the stuff I don’t really have control over won’t bother me as much. Who knows. I just know that I should probably just REST in the afternoons and not try to be a hero, or whatever it is I’m trying to be.
Good night.
You are a hero, no matter if you rest every afternoon! You are doing a fantastic job through all of this! You must accept the things the you cannot change and have courage to change the things the you can! Keep up the good naps!
Love,
Jill
Can’t speak for everyone, but I tend to think about the physical implications of the treatment. Your comments about managing the perception and personal expectation issues are very revealing. I agree with Jill, go for acceptance and do what you have to do.
The katz are reminding me how to nap well. The sunbeams streaming in at the prefect afternoon hour on my bed are an invitation. Thank you both for your gentle reminders.